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"The Bipolar Lisp Programmer"

I am glad to read this (http://www.lambdassoci...), because along with this (Sherwin Nuland: A history of electroshock therapy (TED) http://blog.ted.com/20...) it reminds me how far I have left to go with my mental illness, and how far I have come.

I strongly believe, now, that a certain class of change takes 10 years to effect. 10 years is the upper limit, the only way that changes take more than 10 years is if you only pretend to try to change.

I have more to write about change, ignore that for now.

I have mental illnesses that put a significant (but not insurmountable) barrier between my present self and my highest held wished-for experiences and educations. (“Wished-for Experiences”, “Educations” -- as opposed to “victory conditions” that might depend strongly on luck and externals.)

Bi-polar, with an emphasis on the depressive, is a major one – a major potential barrier.

At this phase of my growth, my forward progress is regulated by how seriously I deal with dealing with this. As a bi-polar with strong tendency to the depressive, how do I avoid the "rocky rapids", and how do I get out of the "rocky rapids" once I realize I have been sucked into the vortex?

My limiting resource is my "sitting-muscles", perspiration, stamina, dogged perseverance, resolute tenacity, stick-to-it-ive-ness.

It is improved, with effort, by straining until the pain point, backing off for rest and restoration, then straining effort to the pain point, again and again.

Until a different resource/skill become the limiting factor.

Boredom & frustration, instead of being a trigger to giving up or distracting activities, can be used as an “interal teperature reading” to help warn me to prepare for my tenacity to be strained to the pain point, as a technique to making my tenacity capability grow.

Getting gout of the “rocky rapids” -- another skill.

Forward

5 months ago by Manuel "Moe" G. - Pro!