so of course, i tend to be quite the opposite. i will write a paper, even a research paper, do a quick grammar and spell check (not via word-processor), and turn it in before i have a chance to do anything to it! of course, this is very adhd of me, as i will write a 25-page paper in one sitting the night before it's due. usually i don't have time to revise. it's like i almost need the urgency of it being due the next day for my brain to decide to slow down enough to write. i found coffee and weed to be helpful, but i'm avoiding caffeine and have to smoke maybe once a month or i turn into a total pothead...i work in the world of extremes, so it's either every now and then or all day every day, which is not good for me. i have started taking some medication for the adhd, so maybe that will help (i will know for sure in the fall!). back to the revisions...i think it would be good to know how to revise without losing my confidence in my own ideas and how i express them. plus, i suck at research...i'm much more of an essayist, but that's not going to cut it now that i'm going back to grad school. anyway, do you have a syllabus you work out of? do you have a collection of notes or lectures or anything that you use for your class? if you do, i would love to have that...i think it would be very helpful for me. i really want to do well at seminary. my acceptance into a suitable ph.d. program absolutely depends on it, since my school is affiliated with columbia university and it will be hard enough as it is to get into their psychology program! (although if i go to a new york state school, i might have more possibilities to create an integrated program that includes religion, psychology, sexuality, and race issues. yeah, it's a tall order.)

hope you're doing well. keep me in your thoughts today. something came up today that, no joke, threatens to keep me from going to school altogether and having instead to file for bankruptcy. long story. i am too scared of it to even talk about it. i'm holding out hope that it will work out...otherwise, i don't know what i'll do! enjoy your class tonight...